Keeping connections

In the last few years, I've met quite a few people, all under different circumstance. Yet I always go through the same cycle.

We meet, instantly click, and get talking intensely for a few hours or the duration of whatever event it is.

I get their snap and we begin talking a lot, and become close friends very quickly.

Then maybe we meet up a few times, and it's great- life is great. Every day is a blessing. And (naturally as people of mutual dispositions do) We keep talking.

Somewhere along the line though, it becomes harder to meet. Text conversations grow repetitive and one sided. That connection we cherished is severed, maybe permanently. Worse still, the contact decays further yet until we don't talk at all. The occasional smile being the only remnant of something once so important to me.

I wonder whether it's the lack of physical contact that causes the deterioration, or whether people simply grow bored of other people. Perhaps the rapidity of the contact means it grows too fast, stumbling over itself till it finally falls, not old enough to get back up

The list is large.

C, E, M, H to name a few

4 people I now barely see or talk to. For the most part amazing people; for the most part the best, most impactful people I know. And I never see them. The tragedy of life is losing the things you live for along the way.

They say that it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.

These people left a mark on my life, leaving me with countless prized memories to reminisce on when days are blue. But many also caused those blue days, usually through no malicious intent. Regardless, I think the saying needs amending :

It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all, even when you lose what you loved most.

Bit of a downer of a post, but it came to mind.